Post by sleepyorigami on May 29, 2012 23:40:43 GMT -5
[18:55] <DallasBrite> Leonard: *blows a bubble. Its some time in the near future and he's waiting in the waiting area to see Marjorie*
[18:56] <AM|Ninja> (Fucking bubbles!)
[18:56] <DallasBrite> (How do they wwork)
[19:05] <DallasBrite> Leonard: *Waiting around, he has an appointment. Maybe Saph set it up?*
[19:05] <AM|Ninja> Saph: *sure, whatever*
[19:08] <iFawe> Marjorie: *Has heaps been trying to befriend Saph so hell yes it's easy to set up.*
[19:09] <DallasBrite> Leonard: *hopes saph hasn't told her anything too embarassing*
[19:12] <AM|Ninja> Saph: *rather fond of Marjorie, so she's warned her about Leonard*
[19:16] <DallasBrite> Leonard: feels like I've been waiting here forever.
[19:19] <DallasBrite> Leonard: good thing I thought ahead and brought Red Delicious to keep me company while I wait.
[20:35] <iFawe> Receptionist: *Checks list!* Leonard?
[20:54] <DallasBrite> Leonard: *closes his laptop and stands up* That's me!
[20:56] <iFawe> (Still wearing a skirt?)
[20:56] <DallasBrite> (yeah)
[20:57] <DallasBrite> Leonard: *still wearing skirts*
[20:58] <iFawe> Receptionist: *Eyes the skirt.* First door on your left.
[20:59] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Thanks. *he goes there*
[21:02] <iFawe> Marjorie: *Sex on legs, etc etc etc.* Good afternoon. Do you prefer Leonard, or something else?
[21:04] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Leonard's fine until I can decide on something better.
[21:05] <iFawe> Marjorie: *Nod nod* Please, take a seat.
[21:07] <DallasBrite> Leonard: yes ma'am. *sits and crosses his legs*
[21:08] <iFawe> Marjorie: What did you want to talk about today? :)
[21:09] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Well, my friend Sapphire Griffin reccommended I talk with you after she found out I was crossdressing.
[21:12] <iFawe> Marjorie: *Nod* And what did you want to talk about in regards to that? Are you struggling with gender identity, or is it just a thing you enjoy?
[21:16] <DallasBrite> Leonard: I, well, I am thinking about being a girl permenantly.
[21:20] <iFawe> Marjorie: mmhmmm. Why is that?
[21:23] <DallasBrite> Leonard: I well, its hard to explain. I've always felt a bit different, Red Delicious can back me up on this, but it didn't really come into focus until that time all of seattle changed genders. I- I felt good about myself.
[21:24] <iFawe> Marjorie: Are you attracted to men? Or women? Or both?
[21:25] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Definitely women.
[21:26] <iFawe> Marjorie: *Nod nod* Can you describe what you meant by "felt good about yourself"?
[21:34] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Well this time was brief, just a day. Unlike later, but, at the time, it was like... a dream. I felt confident, clear minded, free. Before I was a friendless shut-in. After that experience, I took a chance and made all my current friends.
[21:35] <AM|Ninja> (Saph: Dork.)
[21:36] <iFawe> Marjorie: *Nods.* Are you sure the problem isn't one of self-esteem?
[21:36] <DallasBrite> Leonard: what do you mean?
[21:39] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Are you talking about how I'm gullible? I can't help that. It's a powers thing :(
[21:40] <iFawe> Marjorie: *Write write write.* No, I wasn't.
[21:42] <AM|Ninja> Saph: *did in fact warn Marjorie about that detail about Leonard's powers in advance*
[21:42] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Well, there was a time when Saph and Milo were being major bullies to me, Milo especially would use my trust to play mean jokes. But we've gotten past that.
[21:46] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Anyway, I still felt like changing even after working out my bully problems.
[21:48] <DallasBrite> Leonard: I've had an online female persona for months now. And I even spent several weeks as the other gender thanks to a friend with gender powers.
[21:51] <iFawe> Marjorie: Have you completely resolved the bullying issues?
[21:53] <DallasBrite> Leonard: I think so. Well mostly. Milo still ribs me from time to time, but he's calmed down a lot since I first met him.
[21:55] <iFawe> Marjorie: How does the teasing make you feel?
[21:57] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Terrible. It's like watching a train wreck, I can almost sort of see trouble coming, but at the same time, I feel I should give him another chance. And it bites me every time.
[21:59] <DallasBrite> Leonard: I can't really blame him though, its my fault for being such an idiot.
[22:05] <iFawe> Marjorie: *Nod* Have you told him how much it upsets you?
[22:08] <DallasBrite> Leonard: I told him I couldn't take it anymore and that's when I moved out. We are no longer roommates.
[ [22:10] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Of note, this was just after I had spent two weeks gender swapped due to a mean spirited joke on his part.
[22:16] <DallasBrite> Leonard: *blushes* that previous week was also the first time I... I had sex.
[22:16] <AM|Ninja> ( :< )
[22:20] <DallasBrite> Leonard: *really opening up now* Also, I ran away from home to live in Seattle. I hadn't spoken to my family in months and months... I was so worried- I finally reconciled with them that same week.
[22:21] <iFawe> Marjorie: *Nod* It must have been an emotionally draining week.
[22:22] <DallasBrite> Leonard: It was like everything I had bottled up for so long just burst out all at once.
[22:23] <AM|Ninja> (Leonard: And I did other things besides lesbian sex, too!)
[22:23] <DallasBrite> Leonard: ... and it felt good to finally get it all off my chest.
[22:24] <iFawe> Marjorie: Talking helps. Can you tell me about your partner?
[22:26] <DallasBrite> Leonard: you mean Milla? she's nice. Several inches taller than me and very hot. We've become good friends.
[22:27] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Oh! She's also immune to STDs and poison.
[22:28] <AM|Ninja> (Milla: Note to self; re-explain the meaning of 'one night stand' to Leonard.)
[22:28] <DallasBrite> (Leonard: I said friends, not frequent flyers.)
[22:29] <iFawe> Marjorie: I meant personality wise.
[22:32] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Oh, she's energetic, witty, and loves clubbing... Wait, I should clarify that we aren't dating or anything. Just friends who have had sex twice without any future plans.
[22:41] <iFawe> Marjorie: I understand.
[22:44] <iFawe> Marjorie: I'm just trying to gain some insight into you. You seem to hang around a lot of confident, outgoing people.
[22:47] <DallasBrite> Leonard: So many good things happen to me when I'm... different. When I look at things different and approach them with, with -confidence-. That's what I really like about being a girl. The difference of perspective. but at then again, I did chose to change back.
[22:47] <iFawe> Marjorie: Why?
[22:50] <DallasBrite> Leonard: The change is pretty dramatic, physically and mentally. Even my power changes. Which is kind of odd. I don't know anyone else who does that. But I think the sheer difference of it all lets me be someone new, to start with a blank slate and avoid my old mistakes.
[22:51] <automaticCameo> (It may help that you didn't have to deal with Milo tearing you down while you were stuck as a girl.)
[22:52] <DallasBrite> (yes Milo's abscence was a vital part of feeling great)
[22:54] <DallasBrite> (Leonard: Basically it was the perfect storm of conditions to make me feel good. So it's hard to single out one specific cause)
[22:56] <iFawe> Marjorie: *Write!* Do you feel like you have a lot of old mistakes?
[22:58] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Yeah, my past was pretty dumb. I can't believe half the things I've done in retrospect.
[22:58] <DallasBrite> Leonard: It's like they say, hindsights are 50/50.
[22:58] <AM|Ninja> (Saph: Stop using past tense.)
[22:59] <automaticCameo> Rory: *Would approve of that metaphor*
[23:00] <iFawe> Marjorie: Like what?
[23:03] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Not talking to my parents about wanting to go to Cyrus for starters. I just assumed they wouldn't want me to leave the farm and ran away. Cutting all communications is no way to work out ones problems. I tried to do that with Milo once too.
[23:06] <DallasBrite> Leonard: That was just the other day really. Its the most recent lesson learned.\
[23:07] <iFawe> Marjorie: Why did you assume they wouldn't be supportive?
[23:11] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Most things I've tried to do on my own have been some kind of mistake or another. My parents don't want me to mess up, but mistake or not, I wanted to pursue it. To find my own way. Even though I figured it might just be a mistake cause I'm always wrong.
[23:12] <iFawe> Marjorie: Why do you think you're always wrong?
[23:13] <DallasBrite> Leonard: I just am. You can ask saph, there's never been a time where I didn't mess things up.
[23:15] <iFawe> Marjorie: I will Speak To Her. Do you think you've messed up so far?
[23:15] <DallasBrite> Leonard: I- probably.
[23:16] <DallasBrite> Leonard: But its okay. I'd rather be wrong than give up my freedom.
[23:20] <iFawe> Marjorie: How do you feel you've been wrong? I think you've been doing fantastically.
[23:22] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Mostly its other people telling me I'm wrong. I have no reason to disbelieve them.
[23:38] <NiteBrite_> Leonard: Well, I am trusting of others by powers default right? So when conflict comes up, logically if they are right then I am...
[23:40] <iFawe> Marjorie: Well, I think you have some very severe trust, esteem and confidence issues, Leonard.
[23:40] <NiteBrite_> Leonard: dang. I was hoping for the all clear ._.
[23:41] <NiteBrite_> Leonard: But if you say so then its probably true.
[23:42] <AM|Ninja> (Saph: Now, see, that is what we in the business call "irony")
[23:43] <iFawe> Marjorie: I'd like for you to come back so we can do some exercises for that. Let's talk about your gender identity again.
[23:44] <NiteBrite_> Leonard: Am I messing that up too?
[23:44] <AM|Ninja> (Yes.)
[23:45] <iFawe> Marjorie: You're doing excellently, Leonard.
[23:46] <NiteBrite_> Leonard: R-really? ^_^
[23:48] <iFawe> Marjorie: Really.
[23:51] <NiteBrite_> Leonard: Saph was making it sound like I needed help immediately.
[23:52] <NiteBrite_> Leonard: But I felt like, it was something I had some time to work out for myself
[23:53] <AM|Ninja> (Saph: It's not that you needed help immediately. It's that you needed help before deciding to permanently go girl.)
[23:53] <iFawe> Marjorie: It was very brave of you to come and share your feelings, even with Saph's encouragement.
[23:55] <NiteBrite_> Leonard: The hardest part was talking to my parents about it. After that this seemed like a nothing. I should really thank Topaz for standing by my side and helping me to face them.
[23:56] <NiteBrite_> Leonard: Topaz is one of Saph's sisters.
[23:56] <AM|Ninja> (Topaz: Less "standing by your side and helping" and more "Dialing the phone for you and making you actually talk to them")
[23:57] <NiteBrite_> (Leonard: You were literally physically there and offering support and encouragement.)
[00:07] <iFawe> Marjorie: You should definitely thank her.
[00:09] <NiteBrite_> Leonard: I will, and thank you too for listening Doctor.
[00:09] <iFawe> Marjorie: You're very welcome.
[18:56] <AM|Ninja> (Fucking bubbles!)
[18:56] <DallasBrite> (How do they wwork)
[19:05] <DallasBrite> Leonard: *Waiting around, he has an appointment. Maybe Saph set it up?*
[19:05] <AM|Ninja> Saph: *sure, whatever*
[19:08] <iFawe> Marjorie: *Has heaps been trying to befriend Saph so hell yes it's easy to set up.*
[19:09] <DallasBrite> Leonard: *hopes saph hasn't told her anything too embarassing*
[19:12] <AM|Ninja> Saph: *rather fond of Marjorie, so she's warned her about Leonard*
[19:16] <DallasBrite> Leonard: feels like I've been waiting here forever.
[19:19] <DallasBrite> Leonard: good thing I thought ahead and brought Red Delicious to keep me company while I wait.
[20:35] <iFawe> Receptionist: *Checks list!* Leonard?
[20:54] <DallasBrite> Leonard: *closes his laptop and stands up* That's me!
[20:56] <iFawe> (Still wearing a skirt?)
[20:56] <DallasBrite> (yeah)
[20:57] <DallasBrite> Leonard: *still wearing skirts*
[20:58] <iFawe> Receptionist: *Eyes the skirt.* First door on your left.
[20:59] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Thanks. *he goes there*
[21:02] <iFawe> Marjorie: *Sex on legs, etc etc etc.* Good afternoon. Do you prefer Leonard, or something else?
[21:04] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Leonard's fine until I can decide on something better.
[21:05] <iFawe> Marjorie: *Nod nod* Please, take a seat.
[21:07] <DallasBrite> Leonard: yes ma'am. *sits and crosses his legs*
[21:08] <iFawe> Marjorie: What did you want to talk about today? :)
[21:09] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Well, my friend Sapphire Griffin reccommended I talk with you after she found out I was crossdressing.
[21:12] <iFawe> Marjorie: *Nod* And what did you want to talk about in regards to that? Are you struggling with gender identity, or is it just a thing you enjoy?
[21:16] <DallasBrite> Leonard: I, well, I am thinking about being a girl permenantly.
[21:20] <iFawe> Marjorie: mmhmmm. Why is that?
[21:23] <DallasBrite> Leonard: I well, its hard to explain. I've always felt a bit different, Red Delicious can back me up on this, but it didn't really come into focus until that time all of seattle changed genders. I- I felt good about myself.
[21:24] <iFawe> Marjorie: Are you attracted to men? Or women? Or both?
[21:25] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Definitely women.
[21:26] <iFawe> Marjorie: *Nod nod* Can you describe what you meant by "felt good about yourself"?
[21:34] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Well this time was brief, just a day. Unlike later, but, at the time, it was like... a dream. I felt confident, clear minded, free. Before I was a friendless shut-in. After that experience, I took a chance and made all my current friends.
[21:35] <AM|Ninja> (Saph: Dork.)
[21:36] <iFawe> Marjorie: *Nods.* Are you sure the problem isn't one of self-esteem?
[21:36] <DallasBrite> Leonard: what do you mean?
[21:39] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Are you talking about how I'm gullible? I can't help that. It's a powers thing :(
[21:40] <iFawe> Marjorie: *Write write write.* No, I wasn't.
[21:42] <AM|Ninja> Saph: *did in fact warn Marjorie about that detail about Leonard's powers in advance*
[21:42] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Well, there was a time when Saph and Milo were being major bullies to me, Milo especially would use my trust to play mean jokes. But we've gotten past that.
[21:46] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Anyway, I still felt like changing even after working out my bully problems.
[21:48] <DallasBrite> Leonard: I've had an online female persona for months now. And I even spent several weeks as the other gender thanks to a friend with gender powers.
[21:51] <iFawe> Marjorie: Have you completely resolved the bullying issues?
[21:53] <DallasBrite> Leonard: I think so. Well mostly. Milo still ribs me from time to time, but he's calmed down a lot since I first met him.
[21:55] <iFawe> Marjorie: How does the teasing make you feel?
[21:57] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Terrible. It's like watching a train wreck, I can almost sort of see trouble coming, but at the same time, I feel I should give him another chance. And it bites me every time.
[21:59] <DallasBrite> Leonard: I can't really blame him though, its my fault for being such an idiot.
[22:05] <iFawe> Marjorie: *Nod* Have you told him how much it upsets you?
[22:08] <DallasBrite> Leonard: I told him I couldn't take it anymore and that's when I moved out. We are no longer roommates.
[ [22:10] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Of note, this was just after I had spent two weeks gender swapped due to a mean spirited joke on his part.
[22:16] <DallasBrite> Leonard: *blushes* that previous week was also the first time I... I had sex.
[22:16] <AM|Ninja> ( :< )
[22:20] <DallasBrite> Leonard: *really opening up now* Also, I ran away from home to live in Seattle. I hadn't spoken to my family in months and months... I was so worried- I finally reconciled with them that same week.
[22:21] <iFawe> Marjorie: *Nod* It must have been an emotionally draining week.
[22:22] <DallasBrite> Leonard: It was like everything I had bottled up for so long just burst out all at once.
[22:23] <AM|Ninja> (Leonard: And I did other things besides lesbian sex, too!)
[22:23] <DallasBrite> Leonard: ... and it felt good to finally get it all off my chest.
[22:24] <iFawe> Marjorie: Talking helps. Can you tell me about your partner?
[22:26] <DallasBrite> Leonard: you mean Milla? she's nice. Several inches taller than me and very hot. We've become good friends.
[22:27] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Oh! She's also immune to STDs and poison.
[22:28] <AM|Ninja> (Milla: Note to self; re-explain the meaning of 'one night stand' to Leonard.)
[22:28] <DallasBrite> (Leonard: I said friends, not frequent flyers.)
[22:29] <iFawe> Marjorie: I meant personality wise.
[22:32] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Oh, she's energetic, witty, and loves clubbing... Wait, I should clarify that we aren't dating or anything. Just friends who have had sex twice without any future plans.
[22:41] <iFawe> Marjorie: I understand.
[22:44] <iFawe> Marjorie: I'm just trying to gain some insight into you. You seem to hang around a lot of confident, outgoing people.
[22:47] <DallasBrite> Leonard: So many good things happen to me when I'm... different. When I look at things different and approach them with, with -confidence-. That's what I really like about being a girl. The difference of perspective. but at then again, I did chose to change back.
[22:47] <iFawe> Marjorie: Why?
[22:50] <DallasBrite> Leonard: The change is pretty dramatic, physically and mentally. Even my power changes. Which is kind of odd. I don't know anyone else who does that. But I think the sheer difference of it all lets me be someone new, to start with a blank slate and avoid my old mistakes.
[22:51] <automaticCameo> (It may help that you didn't have to deal with Milo tearing you down while you were stuck as a girl.)
[22:52] <DallasBrite> (yes Milo's abscence was a vital part of feeling great)
[22:54] <DallasBrite> (Leonard: Basically it was the perfect storm of conditions to make me feel good. So it's hard to single out one specific cause)
[22:56] <iFawe> Marjorie: *Write!* Do you feel like you have a lot of old mistakes?
[22:58] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Yeah, my past was pretty dumb. I can't believe half the things I've done in retrospect.
[22:58] <DallasBrite> Leonard: It's like they say, hindsights are 50/50.
[22:58] <AM|Ninja> (Saph: Stop using past tense.)
[22:59] <automaticCameo> Rory: *Would approve of that metaphor*
[23:00] <iFawe> Marjorie: Like what?
[23:03] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Not talking to my parents about wanting to go to Cyrus for starters. I just assumed they wouldn't want me to leave the farm and ran away. Cutting all communications is no way to work out ones problems. I tried to do that with Milo once too.
[23:06] <DallasBrite> Leonard: That was just the other day really. Its the most recent lesson learned.\
[23:07] <iFawe> Marjorie: Why did you assume they wouldn't be supportive?
[23:11] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Most things I've tried to do on my own have been some kind of mistake or another. My parents don't want me to mess up, but mistake or not, I wanted to pursue it. To find my own way. Even though I figured it might just be a mistake cause I'm always wrong.
[23:12] <iFawe> Marjorie: Why do you think you're always wrong?
[23:13] <DallasBrite> Leonard: I just am. You can ask saph, there's never been a time where I didn't mess things up.
[23:15] <iFawe> Marjorie: I will Speak To Her. Do you think you've messed up so far?
[23:15] <DallasBrite> Leonard: I- probably.
[23:16] <DallasBrite> Leonard: But its okay. I'd rather be wrong than give up my freedom.
[23:20] <iFawe> Marjorie: How do you feel you've been wrong? I think you've been doing fantastically.
[23:22] <DallasBrite> Leonard: Mostly its other people telling me I'm wrong. I have no reason to disbelieve them.
[23:38] <NiteBrite_> Leonard: Well, I am trusting of others by powers default right? So when conflict comes up, logically if they are right then I am...
[23:40] <iFawe> Marjorie: Well, I think you have some very severe trust, esteem and confidence issues, Leonard.
[23:40] <NiteBrite_> Leonard: dang. I was hoping for the all clear ._.
[23:41] <NiteBrite_> Leonard: But if you say so then its probably true.
[23:42] <AM|Ninja> (Saph: Now, see, that is what we in the business call "irony")
[23:43] <iFawe> Marjorie: I'd like for you to come back so we can do some exercises for that. Let's talk about your gender identity again.
[23:44] <NiteBrite_> Leonard: Am I messing that up too?
[23:44] <AM|Ninja> (Yes.)
[23:45] <iFawe> Marjorie: You're doing excellently, Leonard.
[23:46] <NiteBrite_> Leonard: R-really? ^_^
[23:48] <iFawe> Marjorie: Really.
[23:51] <NiteBrite_> Leonard: Saph was making it sound like I needed help immediately.
[23:52] <NiteBrite_> Leonard: But I felt like, it was something I had some time to work out for myself
[23:53] <AM|Ninja> (Saph: It's not that you needed help immediately. It's that you needed help before deciding to permanently go girl.)
[23:53] <iFawe> Marjorie: It was very brave of you to come and share your feelings, even with Saph's encouragement.
[23:55] <NiteBrite_> Leonard: The hardest part was talking to my parents about it. After that this seemed like a nothing. I should really thank Topaz for standing by my side and helping me to face them.
[23:56] <NiteBrite_> Leonard: Topaz is one of Saph's sisters.
[23:56] <AM|Ninja> (Topaz: Less "standing by your side and helping" and more "Dialing the phone for you and making you actually talk to them")
[23:57] <NiteBrite_> (Leonard: You were literally physically there and offering support and encouragement.)
[00:07] <iFawe> Marjorie: You should definitely thank her.
[00:09] <NiteBrite_> Leonard: I will, and thank you too for listening Doctor.
[00:09] <iFawe> Marjorie: You're very welcome.